Just yesterday we filmed our last triumphant scene for MC2. (Hoorah? No i got to pick up some other shots so it ain't done yet).
And for a Martial Art film I decided to try and end off the film with a little touching moment.
So it has me and Roxie walking along a sunset street, in which we eventually hold hands with each other to acknowledge our friendship. Yes how sweet! Hell it don't feel like it at the time!
Now if this 4 year long experience of starring in my own film has taught me something, it's this --- acting is very, VERY, GAY! But you know, funny thing is that not everyone has this same opinion. Surprised? Yes i sure am!
Roxie our leading lady in the film, has a theater background herself and she handles her scenes with great ease and poise. Damn lioness she is i tell you that. However my amateur, nervous, line forgetful butt has no experience in acting at all, none whatsoever, nada!! Well if you consider that time in High school Drama class, where i got up in front of everybody and cackled out something that was reminiscent to words as "experience". But no; I don't think so homeboy.
So what is it that makes it so gay? I think it's because, it's such an awkward art. You don't say or do the very things that you would usually do. For the first time in your life, you have to be completely aware of how you say and how you grimace.
Eg, picture this, when you have a line of dialogue you speak it. Easy? wait! You go up and say what you got to say. Though then you have to consider this. Where you looking? Sun? Argh no squinting! Everyone is staring at ya right now? Pressure! What are ya lines again? Hey what are you feeling? Funny? sick? What are you bloody hands doing? Crossed? No too grumpy! In da pockets! Waay too casual! IT- JUST-DOES-NOT- STOP * Breathing*
Ok, so if anything I hope that I've changed your mind about being an actor/actress. Though it's funny behind everyone lies a secret dream of being one. I'm guilty. Though despite all that embarrassment, I strangely do find fufillment in the challenge of it all. Contradictorily, to get into someone shoes and be someone your not and be convincing, or close to convincing, yes there is a sweetness. You feel one line closer than any other mediocre person to an Oscar :)
I heard Spielberg sum up what acting is ---- Courage. hmmm.....Maybe it is?